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| Team 180 |
On January 29, 2014 I had my last alcoholic beverage. Soon after that I signed up for Belle's 100 Day Challenge. I completed 100 sober days on May 8th. I'm signing up for Team 180, which is 80 more days sober. I edited the pledge to fit me. This is what I wrote...
(p.s. I don't know why this weird margin thing is going on.)
“I have completed
100 days of sobriety. At first I didn’t
know if I could pull it off. I wanted
this to be the time I quit for good. I
was sick of the hiding, the embarrassment, the lies, the blackouts. But what about my friends and family who
expect me to have drinks with them? I
can’t disappoint them! I’m a people
pleaser! I always give in to peer
pressure, just like the timid little mouse I was in Jr. High. Fuck that!
Guess what? When I quit my perspective
changed and I began to feel better, healthier.
Not all the time, of course, that’s some tough shit to do, but every day
it became easier. I rewarded myself for
sober days. I took time for me and read or sewed or baked muffins. I remembered that I liked to run. So I started running again. Now I’m running about 20 miles a week. I like this new feeling of freedom (and “me-dom”)
and I want it to continue. I pledge to not
drink for 180 days. Not even if my
husband drinks, not even if my in-law family members drink, not even if my
daughter calls me “lame” for not drinking, not even if my visit to the doctor
to see about that damn irksome pain in my side turns out to be something more
than an annoyance. Not even if…anything.
I will not drink. Because you see when
the fog cleared after those first few days, I remembered that there was someone
inside me. Someone who wasn’t the person
that I had become. We became re-acquainted
and she’s pretty damn amazing!"
So I raise my mug of tea in a toast...Here's to 80 days more! Here's to sobriety! Here's to me!
